“In retrospect I may have been a little harsh in my criticism of Sartre. He had never been exposed to Freges Bedeutung as I had, and I had never been exposed to nineteenth century scholastic thought as he had. To draw from scholasticism an anti-essentialist line of thought is a triumph I had no means of appreciating. Apologies.”
So Wayne apologised after all. I mean after a year or so. I had no idea what he was talking about, last time we had a text message exchange it was to tell each other to fuck off. He was as good as dead for me. And he was drunk. This lost child of the race of the Freak and the Insane…
He used to be the drummer of this band I play in: Cock Riot, you may have heard of it, you may have not. He came on board after the previous drummer, who was tall like a giant and stoned like a pro, one day all of a sudden he freaked out, and started yelling at me, and seemed very much on my case, and I figured all he wanted was to just showcase his big fat cock to me, and he talked a lot, spat venom and all, and as big as his cock was he just had no balls to bust my ass. So WE busted his ass, and he was out out out, of the band I mean. He figured he was too much of a threat with all that flood of nonsense, and jabber about how humongous his attributes were.
God! There just wasn’t enough room left for all that extra ego, because the egos of the rest of us were already pretty much clogging the system, and it was a little bit like trying to squeeze your suitcase into one of those Ryanair’s luggage-size check stands. In the end, with a bit of cheating you could maybe make it, but in general it was pretty much a hopeless case!
So Wayne came on board. He used to be a fan of the band, and his dream was to be part of it. And, after the most appalling and disjointed jam together, you know, just to test him out, we said ok. We used to call him home from rehearsal rooms, and it used to be after we had waited for him for an hour or so, and we had discussed among ourselves that his delay was starting to reach Greek levels. So I usually called him, and then his voice would rise like from a very dark place, being in his bed and unduly awakened by me. And a good ten minutes of disquisition on the phone about continental vs English philosophy would ensue, and I would feel like I was talking to a jelly fish, with all his words flowing like slime reaching for the Abyss, and very much affected. He was drunk. He was useless.
But, as much as we wanted him out and started to look for a substitute, he loved the band so much that he managed to convince us to keep him anyway. He made very good philosophical points about it, I mean, the purest English tradition of Logic was channelling through him like he was B. Russell or something, and we were so very inept at logic, that we couldn’t just say no. We should have written a fucking academic essay to disprove him! because he just wouldn’t take it the simple, un-erudite way.
Wayne went from sanity to insanity like he was constantly walking through one of those revolving hotel doors. But the hotel didn’t come cheaply, and he could only afford a few cans of beer a day. He lived in this council estate, and I used to go and visit him every now and then. The furniture was very minimalist. It looked like an art installation by Tracy Emin. A TV set, an armchair two meters away, a dead whales cemetery of squeezed empty beer cans on one side of the armchair, and a flickering ocean of empty plastic skins and apple pies still wrapped up in their bags on the other. The rest of the house covered in a thick layer of dust, like it was infested by those little Australian spiders that swarm and spin like crazy covering everything they touch with a blanket of silken cloth.
So I went to visit him every now and then, and he would be either very drunk, and then I would just leave the man to his philosophical diddle and goo, me being there completely irrelevant, or he would be just tipsy or maybe only on the verge of getting drunk, but still manageable, and so then sometimes we would go out for a walk in the park, buy a few beers in the off-license nearby, and sit on a bench.
So we were sitting on this bench one day, and he said:
“You know? I channel, Roger.”
“What you mean?”
“I mean, I am in direct communication with some supreme beings, whom I reckon are from Zeta Reticuli, being Sirius mentioned all the time.” – he paused, raised his finger to the tip of his chin as if in doubt: “Or was it R136-A1?”
“And what do they tell you, Wayne?” – I took a GOOD FAT LONG look at him.
“That being in this band is the best thing that ever happened in my life.”
I took another GOOD FAT LONG look at him.
“Pretty lame life.” – I tittered. I mean, we were such a hopeless band.
He took a very long sip. I opened another can.
“So you reckon they’ll visit you some day?”
“O they have! They’re all around us.” – very matter-of-fact like.
“Mmm…” – I said looking around with circumspection. “Can you show me one?”
“Sure! You see that guy lying on the green? The guy with a red shirt, and there’s that girl showing off her ass really good next to him.” – he pointed. “Do you see them?”
“Sure.”
“Well there you go. He’s one of them.”
“How do you know?” – I was being hypnotised by the ass.
“I am being informed right now by a supreme being that he is one of them.”
“What’s his name?” – I asked while my hard-on was swelling. “I mean, what’s the name of this supreme being who is allegedly informing you now?”
“Zarpotax, from Theta Centaury, planet Xauntar, the second from the star.”
“So how is it going on Xauntar?” – I asked – “Is it theta-centaury-y like, I mean, sunny and all?” – oooo how charming I was! or so I thought.
“There are no seasons in Xauntar, it is a never-ending splosh of ammonia all over the place. Like a water planet or so, and they live in an insulated capsule immersed in the liquid to avoid the scorching deathly rays from the sun.”
“Geez, how could life ever evolve there at all!?”
“It didn’t. Zarpotax had an emergency crash landing one day on that planet. He’s been trapped with his family in this emergency capsule for over a month now.”
“Is HE telling you all this right now?”
“Yes.”
“But WHY!? What’s the point!? He’s trapped in a bloody insulated capsule in the middle of an ocean of ammonia on an alien planet in order to avoid being roasted by scorching and deadly stellar rays, and maybe his emergency food is running out, and he finds the time to amuse himself WITH YOU!??”
“There’s nothing else to do, Roger. Life is pretty boring in the capsule.”
“So, no hope of getting out of THERE!?” – I felt for Zarpotax.
“O yes, presently a ship has been sent in his and his family’s rescue. It will be there in a week or so.”
“FINE!” – god, that was tense.
I took another sip. Wayne stood up.
“You going somewhere?” – I asked.
“No. Just saying goodbye to Zarpotax.” – he raised his arm and brought his fist next to his heart, then bent a little ahead, and then sat back down.
“He’s not happy, Roger.”
“Who’s not happy, Wayne?”
“Zarpotax.”
“How come?” – I felt exhausted.
“Guess?” – he paused and looked at me. I did not want to guess. “Well, his wife.”
“What an ALIEN concept that is!” – I giggled.
“You know, Roger, I’m worried for him. Divorce is painful. I know my shit.”
“Sure you do, Wayne! Tell me, remind me how it is that your wife wanted to divorce you!” – o what a charming story that was!
“Well, I brought these two Mongolian transvestites I had just gathered from the strip club downstairs, and I brought them in her bedroom where she was already sleeping. I was so sharp on coke that I could perceive the thoughts of the bus driver down the road. I had the most amazing hard-on I ever had in my life. All fired up, like a gasoline tank. So I woke Marge up. Very gently. And I whispered in her ear that I wanted to fuck her together with two Mongolian transvestites, very gently like. And that’s all!”
“And so what happened?”
“She went berserk. She started throwing stuff at me, ANYTHING that she could grab. Then she was going for the TV set, and so I thought it was getting a bit more violent than I wanted, and so I decided to go downstairs, and started shagging the two transvestites on the kitchen floor.”
He paused, stood up, crossed his arms, sat back down.
“What was THAT?” – I asked.
“I just refused conversation with Zarpotax’s wife. She wanted to tell me a thing or two about her husband.”
“Why did you refuse her?”
“She reminds me too much of Marge. The way she always used to complain about silly things. Like me going with whores, for example, and so on.”
“Well, she had a point there!”
“I did not go to the strip club because I wanted to get laid, that was out of my control, I tell you that place was full of nymphomaniacs. They grabbed and grabbed like they hadn’t seen dick since the beginning of Time! I just went there because they had this little old dispenser, very old fashion, and you inserted a coin, it reminded me of when I was a child, you get which dispensers I’m talking about, right? and then you would crank the handle and get these plastic balls out of it, that you would open, and inside there were these miniature genitals statuettes.”
“Is that REALLY the reason why!?”
“I could never find the Emerald Vagina, Roger.” – the coolest fucking voice on earth. “I had the whole bloody collection, but the Emerald Vagina was as slippery as a possessed eel. It felt hopeless. I tell you, up to this day I still have to see an Emerald Vagina in real life.” – he looked so sad.
So he fell silent for a while. Then, all of a sudden:
“Excuse me Roger one moment, I have something to do. I just received a new communication.”
Wayne got up very excited, he looked like a boxer warming up, straightening his back and swooshing fists in the air. I didn’t make much of it, apart that maybe he was just going for a bit of stretching or so, until I saw him walking towards this guy with the red shirt. The ass had gone in the meantime. And then Wayne burst into this insane gibberish and tossed it all over this chap:
“YOU TRAITOR! Lord Zinax condemns you to DIE! You broke the Pact of Stability! I SHALL HAVE YOU STRANGLED WITH MY OWN BARE HANDS! YOU FOOOOL!!”
Wayne was pointing his finger at the guy like he had the power to incinerate him. The lad stood up like he had springs under his feet, and looked around like an animal checking the surroundings before battle, and all the people on the green were just staring at Wayne, still trying to figure out what the heck was going on. Then Wayne literally plunged full body onto the guy, and a bit of a scuffle ensued. A few people came closer and tried to separate them, but Wayne was hot, like he was a Nazi soldier executing orders unquestioningly and with a rather vicious transport. And then the police arrived on bikes. They batoned Wayne pretty good, I mean I saw him spit blood, and he looked like completely insane. His eyes were FIRE!
He had finally lost it.
Zarpotax was having a good laugh in his capsule, rolling all over the place. It was getting hysterical. A month worth of isolation does tricks on you. And so in the frenzy he inadvertently pushed the auto-destruction button, and then there was like a bulge on the surface of the vast ammonia ocean, and Xauntar was once again a dead planet.
As for me, I went home that evening coming from the police station. Wayne was going to be locked away in a mental institution for quite a while, or so I figured, and I really had to email the guys about what had just happened to him. And so we all agreed that it was about time that we started looking for a new drummer.
[To be continued…]
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